By TTC warrior Donna.
I love the Kardashians. I love knowing what they are doing, what they are saying, what they are wearing. This is why last night I sat down excitedly and watched the new Kardashian show on the Disney Chanel
I poured myself a large glass of wine (I am allowing myself one “quality” glass of wine a week), poured a bowl of pretzels, and settled down, ready to lose myself in the crazy Kardashain world, full of random chat and plastic surgery.
Last night though, the chat was far from random (well, maybe just a little)
Before I tell you more the episode, let me just tell you a bit about myself. I am 34. I am married to a wonderful man who I married 5 years ago. Our story is no doubt familiar to so many of you. We got married. We had fun for the first year – we travelled, we decorated, we spent hours talking about how wonderful the future was going to be. Then we made the wonderful decision to start a family. We started to try. It didn’t work. We started again, it didn’t work. Over and over again, until eventually our doctor told us IVF was the only way we would likely ever be able to have a family.
We did a round of IVF. It didn’t work. Thats when the doctor told us it is not uncommon to “fail” on the first round. So, whilst our friends were spending money on buggies and holidays, we have had to find thousands more for the next round. (Don’t get me started on the cost of IVF!!!)
Anyway, thanks to my wonderful family who have maxed out credit cards for me and my husband, we have the money to start again.
I have been told to really nurture my body this time, so, aside from the wine and pretzels, I am eating well, exercising, doing acupuncture and am trying to do the things I love, which brings me back to the Kardashians.
So, whilst watching these women, who are made up to perfection, and seem to all have the most perfect lives, I was overwhelmed with joy to learn that Kourtney and her fiancé Travis Barker are trying for a baby and that they need IVF to do so. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to wish infertility on anyone, but it feels soooooo good to know that even the perfect Kardashians aren’t that perfect!
During Thursday’s (21 April) episode, Kourtney was seen speaking to her mother Kris Jenner about all the complications of her IVF journey. I could totally relate to the feeling of depression, but I am concerned that Kourtney is a little confused about why.
When her mum asked her how her doctor’s appointments were going, she said: “Awful.”
Incase you didn’t see the episode yet, here is what was said:
“Travis and I want to have a baby and so my doctor took us down this road of doing IVF and it hasn’t been the most amazing experience,” she explained.
“Every single person on social media is always like, ‘Kourtney’s pregnant, Kourtney’s pregnant, Kourtney’s gained so much weight,’” Kardashian said. “I’m like, it’s so rude to comment on people when you have no idea what they’re actually going through.
“The medication that they’ve been giving me, they put me into menopause,” she added.
“Based off of what? A drug?” Jenner asked.
“Yes,” said Kardashian, before revealing that “the medication basically put me into depression.”
“I think because I’m so clean and careful with what I put into my body, it’s just having the complete opposite reaction and is working as a contraceptive instead of helping us,” she added.
Jenner reacted shockingly to her daughter’s position, saying: “I feel like I’ve never seen you happier so the depression thing surprises me.”
“And I have everything in the world to be happy about,” Kourtney replied. “I just feel a little bit off. I’m super moody and hormonal. Like, I’m a lunatic half the time.”
To hear that Kourtney was struggling to conceive and that she was struggling with the side effects from her medication really made me feel a connection. I do have to add here though that Kourtney should talk to her doctor so that he can clear up the confusion that her clean and careful consumption was not to blame!!
I suffered so badly on my first round of IVF with my emotions. I read one of your articles written by Dr Faesen at Hart Fertility that explained the following:
Once you start medication, you will experience some changes in your body.
If you are down regulating, meaning the stage when your ovaries are suppressed in preparation for external stimulation, you may feel menopausal like symptoms such as
- Hot flushes,
- Night sweats
- Mood Swings
It can also cause headaches, muscle pain, vaginal dryness and acne. Often, sex is the last thing you can think of, and this can lead to both of you feeling upset and emotional.
I have been through all of the above so I can totally relate to the way Kourtney feels. I wish both my favourite Kardashian and her wonderful man all the love and luck in the world. (And do hope that her doctor can clear things up for her!)